Keith Raniere built NXIVM as a company to help people “find” their true calling and develop methods to help them improve the world we live in.Sounds good – but it wasn’t. In 2005 Sarah Edmondson was a young actress starting out in Vancouver and hungry for purpose when she first heard about NXIVM – a personal and professional development company founded by Raniere. Intrigued by the company’s promise to provide tools, community and insight  to help her reach her potential, Sarah would go on to become one of NXIVM ‘s most faithful devotees, running a company centre and enrolling more than 2,000 members. This is Sarah’s story – from her first NXIVM seminar to the moment she began to question why those members who ask questions promptly leave or vanish; to the invitation she accepts from her best friend, Lauren Salzman, to the initiation ceremony for DOS – a ‘secret sisterhood’ within NXIVM. Sarah’s fearlessness and that ceremony marked the beginning of the cult’s end. This is an eye-opening story about abuses of power, the role of female friendships within cults and how sometimes the search to be ‘better’ can override everything else. Illustrated with photographs.